false hope

u r giving so many hope and snatch it one by one...how cruel u are..i know still love me..u juz dowan to be in a relationship anymore..that is fine..i can wait for u...i ll wait n o matter wat

lose her again

this time i lose her again..i won say anything or what..juz need to take action..i wont ask for reconciliation anymore...yes..because i will chase her back...with the new me..without the old memories

tank god

we are back together now..i am happy because she still loves...me..i ll appreciate her this time...plz god i wanna marry her!!

days without u 4th and 5th

hey..its already the 5th day since i lose her...things changed drastically...from a very close couple into a normal friend sometimes when i see her..i really want to hug her and say sorry...plz gimme one more chance.
yesterday she make her hostel room flood..LMAO..haha she is always clumsy and cute..she made her roomates' book all wet she felt very guilty ....she said after that her roommate din angry bout her and even cook dinner for her...and waited her to comeback around 10pm take dinner infront of her and wash dishes before her roommate sleep..wow...i want my roommate like this too..she tell that she nvr contribute anything to them...

before she sleep i call me and want to listen to my voice and she kept silent..i keep on talking bout how i feel how i live without her these few days..i dunno wheter i am hallucinating or dreaming i heard her sobbing...but then tomolo she told me she slept...i really dunno which one is the truth..i am confuse..she acted like different person at night and different personality in the morning...apa dia mahu..??

haizz...as usuall..i still have give up the chance to reconcile with her..juz wait for the right timing ba...

love u as always'
DENNIS

days without you 3rd

hai, its me again... today's weather is gloomy like my mood...haha...story begins i mean continue...yesterday midnight lighting strike so loud..i was frightened until i woke up from the sleep.i begin to worry bout her she must be scared to..i text her and she replied :'( ..i really tot that she need me that time...but in fact is not..she even said i irritates her..i was so sad and disappointed..after that my sleep was just so terrible. my back was ache and i cant sleep..until in the morning i successfully convinced her to go out with me for making new glasses. she acted angry...but after we reached UK she changed and become friendly towards me...i duno wheter is sud be happy or not..i really miss her so much ..i am glad that she doesnt avoid me but i love her...i dont wanna lose her.

after we walk around buy something and ate pizza we went to choose glasses..she did choose for me s promised..we went back to hostel after that..the journey to hostel was so sad it reminds me when we use to joke around and play around in the bus but this time we dind'nt

after i reach my hostel i sleep again..haha wat can id o beside sleeping...i dreamt lots of thing bout her..i even cry in my dream and i was sweating all over when i woke up..i really cant accept the truth that we have already broken up....she acted like she doesn't care at all..this makes me even worse..i called her and i cried..

no matter how many attempt i try to reconcile with her..she rejected..i have no other choice left..i have to accept the truth that we really broke up...i just want to stay by her side now..even as a fren i am ok with it...i hope as time passes.. i will change and i can change her mind too..

I LOVE YOU AMANDA LEE

days without you 1st and 2nd

ahemm minna-san hissashiburi-desu... i mean long time no see..ok i juz figured out my blog because i havent update it for almost 4 years...today when i access this account and read all the post i previously published i just cant stop laughing i was that childish??? haha even now i am childish hehe... ok gonna start my story now.

over this past 4 years i have finally get myself a GF.. Amanda ...but we just broke up 2 days ago...reasons ?attitude problem..although we have been together not very long just 4 months plus i have really enjoyed it. we gone through so many happy and sad memories. ya i admit i have hurt her so bad...i know my self...i have a very bad temper...i even hurt her when i am angry this is the only thing i cant forgive myself..she haven given me a lot of chances to change and fix my temper but ya i did not appreciate it.

after we broke up..ya of course i am sad cried..but what to do ..is my fault ..chances are not given for the first time..i cant help myself to admit this defeat..over the past few 2 days..i am totally worn out..i just can concentrate on my life..i am not begging for sympathy..i just wanna express my self...i keep on sleeping sleep sleep and sleep i slept for 13 hours yesterday...wanna wake up as nothing happened before but it turned out not what i imagined...time machine does not exist. i keep crying when i think about time we spent together

no matter what life still goes on...i know i am not in the position to make any demand from her...even how badly i wanna get back together with her it is all her choice and decision..i just wanna let her know i will change for sure this time..i love you amanda lee...i do.... T.T  i do care bout her

i hope after this we can be friends..i do not have any other demand i just have to change in order to get u back...i really hope that u wont avoid me and ignore me in the campus...thats all i wanted to say..i have confidence we can get together again..may GOD bless

HEY GUYS AND GALZ

hey i am back...its really been a decade since i update my blog...sorry haha....coz lazy ma...
trial juz finished...haha...dunno how to do....haiz...y? coz no study la....hehe...wat to do?study lo....
erm...aiya i have no idea to write...coz nothing special happen to me dis few months....wat a boring life...nvm juz post some old picha la

at kenny rogers haha still rmb

pui yieu and me

me and puimun

me and sophia

dats all 4 TODAY i ll try to updat ASAP haha